Day 3
Today was actually worse than yesterday… didn’t see that one coming. My body feels like there are electrical shocks running through it. I didn’t even get out of my bed until I ate dinner at around 6, and only did that because even though I’m nauseous I bet not eating would be detrimental. Burst into tears in the middle of dinner and probably cried for 2 hours after that… These mood swings (for the lack of a better term) are awful. The last few hours I’ve felt better emotionally, only dealing with the shocks/headache/everyotherphysicalsymptompossible.
Now that I’ve been up for all of 6 hours it’s time for me to go back to sleep, right? I wish. Last night I had the worst insomnia - kept me up until 8am. Hopefully tonight it’ll at least be while it’s still dark out. Especially since I have to be somewhere just after noon.
I’m now tracking paxil and it’s crazy seeing how many people are posting the same things. If any of you guys are seeing this I’m wishing good luck to all of you!!! Hopefully a month from now we will all be feeling immensely better!
In 11th grade I was prescribed paxil for anxiety and after three years i decided i’d had enough of it. the side effects are terrible and it essentially stopped working. so sometime during finals (i can’t even keep track of the days) i stopped taking it. i want to keep track of the days but i have no clue when the last time i took it was.
i knew withdrawal was coming, from everything i’ve read and from the times that i’ve been out for a week or so and had to deal with it. but nothing could prepare me for how i feel right now. google symptoms and chances are i have every single one. i can’t stop crying (literally sobbing as i’m typing this), am always nauseous, maintain a throbbing headache, and have terrible dreams. oh and brain zaps are definitely real and awful.
all i want to do is go to sleep (without dreams) for a month and wake up to find that this is finally over.
intense withdrawal day 2.
EDIT: i hit the link for the tracked tag and found a billion posts of people saying the same thing. knowing i’m not alone makes this just a little easier.
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